We're no longer TTC!

Since July 2010 I started my workup with my new OB Gyne Dra. Shiela Jane Illescas of In My Womb. I had several blood tests and she prescribed me Clomid then gave us schedule of baby dance but during my CD17, I had severe back and pelvic pain. My prime suspect is UTI so I have to go for urinalysis, good thing there is a medical diagnostic in front of our office. After getting the result and the pain was no longer tolerable I urgently went home and rushed to the hospital. Positive UTI nga, hays.. Sayang ang Clomid intakes ko.. But I'm still hoping na mapreggy na nga din but come on August 3 I had my visit.. Oh well, next cycle na lang ulit. Again another cycle of clomid, follicle monitoring, duphaston.. Another cyle of gastos in short.. This time CD16 ko na ang first follicle monitoring ko which I think nagburst na ang egg ko kaso on my ultrasound wala pa nagburst but I had 2 matured eggs! Yahhoooo!!! 1.8cm on left and 2.2cm on right first time may nagmature na follicles on my both ovaries. After that I was injected with Pregnyl para magburst yung follicle and gave us our schedule with time of baby dance. We follow Doc Shiela's advice..



But on my CD18, I am not feeling well again and encountering back pain with slight fever. I have to rest and asked my brother to massage my back and my legs. I felt helpless that time.. I cried and asked Lord for forgiveness.."Lord sorry po kung makulit ako, inuunahan ko ang plan nyo para sa amin.. Siguro nga po hindi pa right time. I'll wait na lang po Lord for your blessing, titigil na po ako sa pagpapagamot and put all my trust in You. Suko na po ako.. Sorry po Lord.. May your wish come true! I love you! " After that silent prayer while I'm in our rooftop, sabi ko sa sarili ko.. ayoko na mag isip about TTC.. promise talga.. I'll love my husband more and spoil ko na lang muna sarili ko and give financial assistance to my cousins kesa mapunta sa mga fertility meds na ubod ng mahal and which may cause negative effects on my body.

A week after, we went to my husband's province, I want to relax and unwind.. Wala na akong paki alam kahit malayo ang byahe..ang nasa isip ko na lang non ibibigay kung ibibigay kung hindi, di pa.. I prayed na lang sabi ko "Lord iiwas nyo po sana ako sa mga taong magtatanong kung bakit wala pa, Please give me more patience Lord. I love you"
Lord, heard my prayers wala nga nagtanong sa amin na relatives ni hubby, especially my inlaws they never asked. I guess ayaw na nila siguro kami ma pressure or ma hurt.. I enjoyed staying there, we eat a lot of good and fresh foods then makipaglaro sa mga pamangkin ni hubby.. My hubby’s parent were so religious every Sunday we hear mass at their local Church. As I was seating besides my hubby his little pamangkin named Timothy went to me and sit on my lap..
That was the first time na lumapit at kumandong sya sa akin, which I thought he will go to his tito (my hubby).. During that moment I silently prayed while Tim was sitting on my lap. I whispered to God:
“Lord bigyan mo din po kami ng Little Tim” and then bigla ako napaisip.. Ang kulit ko na naman ata ah.. sabi ko di na nga ako mangungulit..hehe.. Then again I whispered: “Lord sorry po ulit makulit na naman ako..hehe”

After our 4 days vacation, we went back to Manila. I am expecting to have my visit on that time. Kaso wala pa, feeling ko padating na nga since I am having some dysmenorrhea which is more painful than the usual. After 2 days I’m still delayed, kaso naisip ko baka delayed lang mag react ngaun si duphaston.. Until 7 days but my period wasn’t shown yet. My TTC friends insisted me mag pregtest na nga, kaso I am doubtful and afraid to see a negative result again.. Nakakapagod din kasi at nakakadepress.. But then I tried that was Sept 7 after getting home I used a Pregnancy Test Kit. As I was dropping my urine I closed my eyes and prayed to the Lord: Kaw na po bahala.. Kung maging negative po ulit naiintindihan kop o Lord”. Then when I opened my eyes I’ve only seen 1 line, but wait there’s a super light line below. I dropped some urine again.. Viola! I’ve got 2 lines!!! Although medyo malabo pa din ang 1 line. I texted my OB immediately.. Kahit medyo nanginginig pa ako and medyo teary eyed. I can’t believe it! My OB replied: “Preggy ka na nyan! See me tom Yahooo!!!!!” I waited for my hubby to arrive. I’m so excited for him to share the good news!


Then he came.. sabi ko may papakita pala ako sayo..

Joan: Magiging Tatay ka na! (Showing him the BFP Preg test)
Jet: Weehhhh, di nga?
Joan: Yup
Jet: Ngayon lang ba nagka double line pag nag pregtest ka?
Joan: Yup! Tara kain na tayo maghahanda na ako pagkain.
Jet: Sandali lang..Nakabuntis pala ako? (Habang nakatulala)
Joan: Yup nakabuntis ka nga..hehe
Jet: Ibig sabihin sa May ka pala manganganak
Joan: Tomorrow confirm natin, magpapacheck up ako kay OB

Natawa na lang ako, naisip at nagcount na sya kelan lalabas si baby..Natulala pa ang asawa ko.. di makapaniwala nakabuo na din kami. Hahaha..