Poor Matty, at age of 8mos na experience na nya ang maconfine. I decided to confine my son, mahirap magdecide mag isa. Pero sa tingin ko ito ang best way para maging worry free at gumaling si baby Matt.
Nung pagdating namin sa hospital, binigyan sya agad ng oxygen.
The resident pedia told me na "ok na sya Mommy" wag ka magpanick. Nakatulog na ang anak ko, he was so tired after his convulsion. I decided not to see him habang nilalagyan sya ng dextrose so I went to the admitting office para makapag asikaso ng room. On the entire floor dinig na dinig ang iyak ni Matt. I can't help it and returned back immediately to my son. He was looking to us na parang nanghihingi ng tulong kaso wala naman kami magawa.. "I just say, anak sorry..sorry..sorry" Habang nakakatulog na sya, kinuhaan naman ng dugo.. Iyak na naman si Matt.. Habang napapaiyak na din ako.. I feel the pain of my son.
Kung pwede lang ako na lang sana anak.. Sorry anak..
Initially I reserve for a ward room (6 beds) kaso crib lang pala ito. Naawa naman ako sa anak ko at sa sarili ko din..My worry is baka mahawa ang anak ko sa sakit ng iba and bawal daw ang may ibang kasama magbantay, paano na pag gusto kong mag CR? I decided to move on the suite room which cost P3,500!
Pikit mata ko na lang nilipat ang anak ko and plan to move if there would be a single room available.
We learned that the Convulsion is hereditary. My sister had it and si Mama din pala. Sa side ni Jet naman 2 of his brothers had convulsion din. So naswertehan pala si Matt.
Halatang pagod na pagod at gutom na gutom ang anak ko, pwede sya mag milk kaso 1 onz lang. Kaya iyak na naman dahil sa gutom. Buti na lang may IPAD kaming dala at ang favorite ever nyang Twinkle Twinkle Little Star ang nakakapag patahan sa kanya habang ako naman ay naiiyak..
I felt the love of my son. He cried out when he did not see me.. He always want me to carry him..
He often says Ahmi or Mama.. I love you too anak..
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