Things I've did and enjoyed after my miscarriage

Here are some things that help me to recover fast after my miscarriage. I think this is my first time that I had a longer vacation for my entire life. I woke up late, bond with my son, watch tv etc., Yes, because even I was young I already helping my parents in our Sari Sari Store. Then before I graduated my college, I am already working as a high school tutor, then I got my first official job tapos tuloy tuloy na. So walang pahinga talaga. (Ako na ang masipag! ) But I thanked God for everything!

Yes it still hurts, I am not yet emotionally and physically recovered but I know that we have a big GOD that will help us and hug us in times when we are down. We are waiting for his perfect plan.

It's time to move on and I begin with my new hair look!  I was able to bring my son to a near barber shop. I am so glad that he did not cry anymore!

I had time for my son, he really hates writing! But I am happy that we did the dinosaur tracing activity.

We did some Chalk Photo Wall Art!

We are finally done getting all our things from our old crib. Bye, Bye El Pueblo! Thank you for the 4 years.   Btw, we also have our first tenant in one of our apartment. 

I had a time making my first BENTO for my Son! And oh, I had time cooking again! 

Had our first set of plants.  Thanks to our neighbor where we get oregano and aloevera! I am dreaming to have more herbal plants. It will be Joaquin's responsibility to water our plants. Happy that he will have a new activity when I get back to work. 

Our first try of T- Shirt Fabric Art.

Thank you Dear Hubby, for the sweet homemade ice cream dessert!

And now it's back to work! But glad, I am allowed to worked from home for 1 more week.

Three weeks is short enough, but still thank God I am recovered and had wonderful moments with my family. Thank you dear Lord, I already have a son. We will wait again for your perfect time to bless with our princess. 

Bye for now Baby Chons

Since the start of the year 2014, Jet and I are planning to have a second child. Matt, also being makulit that he is already a big boy and want to have a baby sister or baby brother. Since I have PCOS, and after 3 months of trying I went again to a fertility expert last June,exactly celebrated my 32nd birthday! Imagine almost the whole day of my birthday I was in the clinic and waiting for  my doctor. My new infertility doctor was so in demand, imagine she has 50 patients in a day. To avoid stress, and due to typhoon, conflict schedules I stopped my check up. I decided to continue once we move to our old new house na lang.

I was delayed for more than a week last August and I thought dadating din ang mens ko. But when I had a pregnancy test I got surprised seeing 2 lines! To think that I don't have any follicle monitoring etc.,

We are all excited! My son gave a name pa, he said the name of the baby is Baby Chons! 

I super appreciate how my son is being so proud and point out my tummy to tell his playmates that he will be Kuya na! He wanted us to call him Kuya Joaquin.

But sadly, the sac did not developed as it should be, At 11weeks there is no heartbeat, no baby and only a sac that measures 5weeks. I decided to have D and C (raspa) last September 24 to remove the sac.  

I thought I was okay emotionally and I accepted the situation after praying before the operation. But hindi pa pala. When I brought to my room after my operation. My sister was the only one waiting for me in my room and she said my tears are flowing.  I was unconscious and did not know I was crying pala. That moment I only see myself  waving my hand and saying "BYE BYE BABY CHONS! BYE BYE! WE LOVE YOU!"

The operation was quick and I fell asleep immediately after the anesthesia was injected. Then I woke up I am already delivered to my room, My sister was wiping my tears and heard her "Ate, wag ka na umiyak, naiiyak na din  ako eh."

I know Papa God has better plans for us.. I still Thank HIM for giving me chance to get pregnant again. I will wait and hope we will be blessed for another healthy baby, in HIS time..

Mommy's Letter for Angel Baby Chons

Dear Angel Baby Chons, 

Just yesterday, the doctor removed you from my womb. I know that you were not there yet, but in my heart and my mind I know I am keeping a baby inside. The operation was fast it didn't hurt mommy much because of the anesthesia. What hurt most darling, is that I will never get the chance to hold you in my arms. I will never get the chance to breastfeed, kiss you, play with you...

Your Kuya Joaquin, loves you so dearly and was so excited to give you a name. He said you are Baby Chons, I don't know what is he thinking why he gave you that name but I know that name came from his heart. 

The moment I learned that I was pregnant with you is the same happiness I felt in my heart when I got pregnant with your Kuya Joaquin. 

Baby Chons, I understand that you are not ready in our world. Don't worry I will explain that to your kuya. I know that you still want to be an angel and to be beside Papa Jesus. 

I am sorry if there are things that I didn't do or things that I have done when I was pregnant with you. 
I am sorry if I sleep late and do my work or I should take my metformin as my maintenance for PCOS. I am very sorry my dear.. 

Please get back to mommy's tummy when you are ready. We will pray to Papa God for both of us to be healthy when that right time comes. 

I do really believe God has better plans for us. I love you and you will be forever in our hearts. 

Be an angel to our family.  We love you. Bye..


Love, 
Mommy Joan

Happy 5th year Anniversary

Hooray for Five years Blissfully Marriage Life! Time flies really fast, and when I looked at our Wedding Pictures, I must say "Tumatanda na nga kami!" haha.  We don't have any plans going out of town or exchanging gifts with each other. Because we could not afford this time. haha. But, we are all excited to move to our Old New House! Our very nice gift from God Above! Yes, all of our budgets, savings are spent for our Old New House. But we spent with buffet dinner at Guevarra's together with our bagets! 

Our little Kuya, with kulit pose with his Dadda

Happy Anniversary to us!

Dinner buffet at Guevarra's by Chef Lau

We enjoyed the food!

Found these hats, my son's idea us to wear it and take pictures!

PS. I am pregnant and we are still hoping to see our baby's heartbeat for our next check up.

Happy 5th Anniversary to us! Thank you Papa God for blessing our family more than enough! Please continue to bless us with LOVE, RESPECT and with YOU as center of our Family. And please, a baby sister for my Son.

Happy 3rd Birthday to our Little Favorite Boy!

Happy 3rd Birthday to you my sweetest  "JOAQUIN"!

Yes, I'm calling you as JOAQUIN and that's what you want us to call you. A little bit history, it is because I think of the teenage actor Daniel Padilla where he had a teleserye and his name there was Joaquin. That is what I am thinking why did you prefer to be called as Joaquin rather than Matt. 

Anak, I can't believe how time flies so fast from being a our baby boy to toddler and now you are a preschooler na. I so love everytime we were together, there are no dull moments. You have shown me how important I am to your life that I should take care of myself because of you.


Here are some highlights of what you (we) have done before you turned 3 years old!


I am always excited to be home because I know you are always waiting for me to read you books! (28 mos)

You don't like to wear super hero costumes, scary costumes.. But allowed Mommy to make you a the cutest scarecrow for trick or treat! (31 mos)

You love your cousins Kuya Tim and Ate Ien! (31 mos)

How you wish to have a pet. Even to bring a goat to our house. (32 mos)

You are so happy to have your first fish pets as our Christmas gift. (32 mos)

You are no longer scared riding horses even if Mommy was not with you.  (32 mos)

You are so adorable and walked by yourself at Ninang Kaye's wedding. (33 mos)

You love to sing! I think you will be a good singer when you grow up! 

But the only song you always like to sing in videoke is "Pusong Bato" haha (33 mos)

You want to have family picture even before we sleep! (34 mos)

You learned how to share your toys  and make friends! (34 mos)

Oh, you love to help mommy in our household chores! (34 mos)

Like father, like son! Both of you loves basketball shoes! You even suggested which one looks better! (34 mos)

Oh! Congratulations you were no longer using milk bottles when drinking milk!(35 mos)

I love how much you love to kiss ME! You are my little lover boy! Thank you for all your love!

Bye Bye Baby Bottles!

Yey! My baby Boy is reall Big Boy na talaga! Thanks to these fancy straws, he's not using his milk bottles anymore at 35 months!

Good Job anak! And we changed his milk na pala from Progress Gold to Nido! 

Laking tipid na ulit. 

Our Happy Valentines 2014

 Oh Yes!!! Woke up with this bouquet of flowers on Valentines!!! Nilalagnat ba ang asawa ko?? Haha. I am no longer expecting from him to give me flowers. Feeling ko tapos na ang pagdadalaga ko  simula ng mag asawa kami. Or even when we were bf/gf very seldom that he gave me flowers. He's on more practical. Oo na, I'm bitter ocampo when seeing bouquet of flowers posted every Valentines in FB. I'm expecting na nga my son will be the one to give me flowers..  Pero ngayon, Wow! feeling ko lang haba ng hair ko!

Since (as always) be traffic in the city, we planned to have our post Valentines date out of town together with our charming bulilit. 

We spent overnight at Subic! Yey!

with our traditional bed picture!

See that smile of the little boy!

Of course, hindi mawawala ang swimming, medyo malayo at mahirap pala makahanap ng resort with swimming pool and swimmable beach area.. 

Then the next day we went to Ocean Adventure! This is what Joaquin is really looking forward! To see the Dolphins!!! He is really excited to get inside!

The little boy was so amazed!!!! Hindi kumukurap and he sat in front of us to have a closer look of the dolphin show. 

Our happy family! Our Happiest Post Valentines day.. 

Hoping to get back again to Subic together with some of our other family members. 

Matt's first drawing!

As the start of this year, I realized that I need to teach Matt to write, draw and have interest in arts and crafts rather than palying ipad or watching tv. But, I was dissappointed when he told me that he doesn't want to write. Ok, maybe I'll just have to accept that it was still too early or he doesn't have interest yet in writing or drawing.

But just yesterday, while I was busy working at my Mom's house my brother came to me and said: "Ate, ang galing magdrawing ni Matt!" I was like:huh. Eh di nga sya marunong mag hawak pa ng lapis. 

To my curiosity, I go outside, and found this drawing on the street!! I was amazed too! He was just 33mos old, my mom said, he asked Matt if he could draw a Man.. Heheh. 

   

Before we sleep, I asked him if he is the one who draw that. And he said yes, then I asked if that was a man...He answered back: "that's chicken." Oo nga naman mas mukha palang chicken. 

I'm sorry son, if I understimate you.. You never fail me talaga. I'm so proud of you, Love you!

Good Mornings with Matt..

One morning..

Matt: Mommy, is it morning?

Me: Yes, it's Morning

Matt: Mommy, (with tapik sa face) Good Morning.. (in a soft voice)

Aww.. I love Mornings, I so love waking up with my two boys!!

Lookback for blessings of Year 2013!

It's been a while since I'm not updating my blog. I admit, I became very busy for the Year 2013, eversince I accepted my new job. It's more challenging but  I'm so grateful for all the good things happened to me and my family.  Year 2013 was another great year for us, below are some great blessings we received:

1. I accepted my new job! :) 

2. Our little Matt, turned  2 years old. As I had a new job offer so we decided also to give a birthday party to our lucky charm. We had a simple celebration at McDonalds. Unlike the first birthday, I did no longer have some DIY's or personalized items. 

 3. I was so blessed that my VISA was approved and my company was so generous to let me attend to the Knowledge Conference and visit some of our offices there! I visited 5 states in 3 weeks time. Imagine, the body pains, jetlogs I had. But indeed, it's a wonderful experience!!! I never thought I'll be in USA and visited great cities without spending my own money. :)

At Buffalo, New York

The BEAN in Chicago

Our office at Fairlawn, Ohio

Hola! to Las Vegas!

Visit to my friend at New York city

4. Just after I came back, my husband agreed that we need to get a new car. As my work was bit far from our house and it was not so safe to ride in a cab or commute in the middle of the night. God blessed us with our new ride! I named her ARA, I got it from the beautiful hotel I stayed in Las Vegas.

5. I celebrated my 31st Birthday with my family! :) So thankful and overwhelmed from our blessings specially the great gift of another year!

6. Finally, my birthday wish came true! Since the start of the year I was hopeless to get a new nanny to take care of my son and help me to do the chores. But, God was so great, My tita Necy and her daughter went to Manila to help us in taking care of my son. 

7. Dadda Jet, celebrated his 32nd birthday!

8. My Mama, Me and My Sister had a great bonding time at Singapore!

9. We had a good time spending Christmas Holidays in Baguio City. 

10. We had a great New Year!