Bye for now Baby Chons

Since the start of the year 2014, Jet and I are planning to have a second child. Matt, also being makulit that he is already a big boy and want to have a baby sister or baby brother. Since I have PCOS, and after 3 months of trying I went again to a fertility expert last June,exactly celebrated my 32nd birthday! Imagine almost the whole day of my birthday I was in the clinic and waiting for  my doctor. My new infertility doctor was so in demand, imagine she has 50 patients in a day. To avoid stress, and due to typhoon, conflict schedules I stopped my check up. I decided to continue once we move to our old new house na lang.

I was delayed for more than a week last August and I thought dadating din ang mens ko. But when I had a pregnancy test I got surprised seeing 2 lines! To think that I don't have any follicle monitoring etc.,

We are all excited! My son gave a name pa, he said the name of the baby is Baby Chons! 

I super appreciate how my son is being so proud and point out my tummy to tell his playmates that he will be Kuya na! He wanted us to call him Kuya Joaquin.

But sadly, the sac did not developed as it should be, At 11weeks there is no heartbeat, no baby and only a sac that measures 5weeks. I decided to have D and C (raspa) last September 24 to remove the sac.  

I thought I was okay emotionally and I accepted the situation after praying before the operation. But hindi pa pala. When I brought to my room after my operation. My sister was the only one waiting for me in my room and she said my tears are flowing.  I was unconscious and did not know I was crying pala. That moment I only see myself  waving my hand and saying "BYE BYE BABY CHONS! BYE BYE! WE LOVE YOU!"

The operation was quick and I fell asleep immediately after the anesthesia was injected. Then I woke up I am already delivered to my room, My sister was wiping my tears and heard her "Ate, wag ka na umiyak, naiiyak na din  ako eh."

I know Papa God has better plans for us.. I still Thank HIM for giving me chance to get pregnant again. I will wait and hope we will be blessed for another healthy baby, in HIS time..