Just yesterday, the doctor removed you from my womb. I know that you were not there yet, but in my heart and my mind I know I am keeping a baby inside. The operation was fast it didn't hurt mommy much because of the anesthesia. What hurt most darling, is that I will never get the chance to hold you in my arms. I will never get the chance to breastfeed, kiss you, play with you...
Your Kuya Joaquin, loves you so dearly and was so excited to give you a name. He said you are Baby Chons, I don't know what is he thinking why he gave you that name but I know that name came from his heart.
The moment I learned that I was pregnant with you is the same happiness I felt in my heart when I got pregnant with your Kuya Joaquin.
Baby Chons, I understand that you are not ready in our world. Don't worry I will explain that to your kuya. I know that you still want to be an angel and to be beside Papa Jesus.
I am sorry if there are things that I didn't do or things that I have done when I was pregnant with you.
I am sorry if I sleep late and do my work or I should take my metformin as my maintenance for PCOS. I am very sorry my dear..
Please get back to mommy's tummy when you are ready. We will pray to Papa God for both of us to be healthy when that right time comes.
I do really believe God has better plans for us. I love you and you will be forever in our hearts.
Be an angel to our family. We love you. Bye..
Love,
Mommy Joan
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